Well, I guess we all need a depressed day from time to time. Yesterday was mine. Today, I feel somewhat better. I wasn't feeling too hot this morning but as promised I weighed myself (since I didn't yesterday). To my surprise, I am down an additional 2lbs. Which brings my weight loss for the past 2 weeks to 10.2lbs. I am pretty psyched about that! I hope I can lose 2lbs a week. If I am honest I wish I could lose 3lbs a week but I know the healthy way is 1-2lbs a week.
Also, today before work I went to Ross. I forgot how much I love Ross. (For those of you who know me really well, you may be shocked to read that...me? Forget Ross?) I managed to find 2 pair of black pants that fit and costs me a total of $15. That is right...TOTAL. One was $9.99 and the other was $5. (Clearance!) So I am pretty ecstatic! One pair was pretty plain Jane but the other was actually stylish!
Another bright part to my day...I put on a pair of gray dress pants that I haven't worn since August...and they fit! Yay! I guess I just need to be a little more patient and slowly but surely I will start seeing the results I want to see.
Someone suggested that I do Zumba (in a class setting) and I think I will look into it. It will definitely get me moving and I can meet people. I think I will make it my reward to myself for reaching my 1st 10% goal. That is something to strive for and look forward to doing.
Thank you to all my readers for the encouraging words. They mean a lot, and it is so good to know I have people who have my back! Hope you all have a wonderful night.
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
Join me on my weight loss journey! This is going to be a very real attempt at losing weight without using a "fast" method. Why? Been there, done that, gained more.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Day 20: Tough times
Today started out kind of rocky for me. I am battling a bit of depression I guess. First off, I really haven't seen a weight loss this week. Of course, I know I haven't stuck to my diet and exercise as much as I did last week. Good thing is that I didn't gain. I am still trying to re-train my brain and become more patient. In the past, with JC and with the pills, weight came off fast and easy. (Of course it came back fast and easy too). I am not used to waiting for it, but I know in the long run that is how it needs to be in order for me to keep it off. But regardless, I am still a bit depressed. I really want to see the results. I know last week I lost 8lbs but I am ready to see some inches melt off. I want my pants to feel looser and my face to get thinner.
I have been at this blog for almost 3 weeks. And WW for 2 weeks. I know that is not very long. I know I have to be patient but it is hard. Anyone who has tried to lose weight, knows this feeling all too well. I also need a couple of pairs of pants for work. And 1) I don't like trying on clothes in hopes they fit, and then they don't and B) I don't like buying my current size because in my mind I know that soon I will be smaller. So that kind of depressed me. I tried to find some last night with no success. The only ones that were on sale looked like something my grandmother would wear. And the few cute ones (and by cute I merely mean regular un-granny like) that came in my size were not on sale. I swear, after a size 12, we plussies start paying a fat tax. I only buy things on sale or with a coupon. And the ones in my size that were not frumpy were too expensive to have for only a short amount of time.
Back to the fat tax. I mean, they charge us extra for the bigger sizes. Okay I get it, more fabric? Fine. I will pay the dang fat tax. But puhlease give me something fashion worthy. I do not need all my garments to have Hawaiian flowers or leaves on them. I do not need dress pants that have a drawstring like a Hefty Hefty Sinch Sac. Can my shirts have a little definition and the fabric be a bit more sturdy. I need to hold in these rolls not place a sheer fabric over it. Just more things to depress me. But I digress....
I also realized today how much I miss home. I miss my friends like crazy. I miss my girl talks and hanging out, having movie nights, etc. I really miss it. I love my little family here in MD, don't get me wrong. And working has been great, but I work with mainly guys. I just can't get that same comradery with them as my girls back home. Anyways, I know that has nothing to do with weightloss but its been weighing heavy on me today. I would appreciate any prayers!
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
I have been at this blog for almost 3 weeks. And WW for 2 weeks. I know that is not very long. I know I have to be patient but it is hard. Anyone who has tried to lose weight, knows this feeling all too well. I also need a couple of pairs of pants for work. And 1) I don't like trying on clothes in hopes they fit, and then they don't and B) I don't like buying my current size because in my mind I know that soon I will be smaller. So that kind of depressed me. I tried to find some last night with no success. The only ones that were on sale looked like something my grandmother would wear. And the few cute ones (and by cute I merely mean regular un-granny like) that came in my size were not on sale. I swear, after a size 12, we plussies start paying a fat tax. I only buy things on sale or with a coupon. And the ones in my size that were not frumpy were too expensive to have for only a short amount of time.
Back to the fat tax. I mean, they charge us extra for the bigger sizes. Okay I get it, more fabric? Fine. I will pay the dang fat tax. But puhlease give me something fashion worthy. I do not need all my garments to have Hawaiian flowers or leaves on them. I do not need dress pants that have a drawstring like a Hefty Hefty Sinch Sac. Can my shirts have a little definition and the fabric be a bit more sturdy. I need to hold in these rolls not place a sheer fabric over it. Just more things to depress me. But I digress....
I also realized today how much I miss home. I miss my friends like crazy. I miss my girl talks and hanging out, having movie nights, etc. I really miss it. I love my little family here in MD, don't get me wrong. And working has been great, but I work with mainly guys. I just can't get that same comradery with them as my girls back home. Anyways, I know that has nothing to do with weightloss but its been weighing heavy on me today. I would appreciate any prayers!
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Day 19: Good Idea...Bad Idea
I am exhausted! I had to work this morning after closing last night. Not fun. The day actually went by pretty fast. I was looking forward to dinner because I told the husby I wanted to go out. I have done really good with my diet and haven't really used any extra points. So tonight was a big splurge. We had Hibachi...It was so delicious (Good Idea). Bella had a lot of fun watching the guy cook (after her initial shock from the flame of fire lol). It was a nice family dinner, and we sat with 2 other families.
I let Bella share my rice, because 1) they give you waaay too much rice and B) the kids meals started at like $8.95 and that is just tooooo expensive in my opinion. I forget just how much food you get with Hibachi. I ordered Steak and Shrimp. Of course, all the yummy veggies came with it and soup and a salad...I ended up eating it all. BAD IDEA. My stomach had started to get used to healthy smaller portioned meals. From now on, I will set aside 1/2 my meal in a to go box before I start eating. It is a little hard to do with Japanese, because it comes in stages, but I will make it work somehow.
Tomorrow the husby and I are going to attempt to make some sort of healthy Game Day foods. I can't wait!
Oh and I think I am going to wait until Monday to weigh in, instead of tomorrow. I am not dumb. I had a big meal that had more sodium in it than I have had in a while. I am going to drink some extra water tomorrow to help flush out the sodium....
Until next time!
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
I let Bella share my rice, because 1) they give you waaay too much rice and B) the kids meals started at like $8.95 and that is just tooooo expensive in my opinion. I forget just how much food you get with Hibachi. I ordered Steak and Shrimp. Of course, all the yummy veggies came with it and soup and a salad...I ended up eating it all. BAD IDEA. My stomach had started to get used to healthy smaller portioned meals. From now on, I will set aside 1/2 my meal in a to go box before I start eating. It is a little hard to do with Japanese, because it comes in stages, but I will make it work somehow.
Tomorrow the husby and I are going to attempt to make some sort of healthy Game Day foods. I can't wait!
Oh and I think I am going to wait until Monday to weigh in, instead of tomorrow. I am not dumb. I had a big meal that had more sodium in it than I have had in a while. I am going to drink some extra water tomorrow to help flush out the sodium....
Until next time!
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
Friday, February 4, 2011
Day 18: Ooops!
Today was a weird day. I had to be at work for a meeting at 7:45am. It lasted about 45 minutes and instead of going home and sleeping for a little longer, I went to Target. I ordered a skinny vanilla latte (my 1st!) and I thoroughly enjoyed it! I perused the store slowly and checked out lots of clearance (wahoo). Then my stomach growled! Ooops! I realized it was almost 10am and I had not had breakfast, merely the coffee that was in my hand.
I made my purchases and drove home. I must have been half asleep because instead of eating, I started to exercise. Then I jumped in the shower and got ready for work. Ooops! It was then 12:20 and I had to be at work at 12:45---I still hadn't eaten. So on my way to work I stopped at Chickfila and got a Chargrilled Wrap---normally I would have done the salad but since 1)I was running late I couldn't eat a salad while driving and B) I didn't use any points for breakfast so I knew I needed the extra umph.
Work was long and tiring. It felt like I had been there, well it felt like I had been there since 7:45!!! Finally around 7pm I managed to get away for my "lunch" break. I opened my bag and saw that silly me, I forgot my soup. Oooops! So all I had was my SmartOnes and my 100 calorie pack cookies. "Le Sigh".
I didn't track my points yet, but I am sure I didn't meet my requirements....Ooops! But I am tired and have to be back at 8:45am tomorrow....So I am going to bed! Night!
PS Moral of the story, don't forget to eat! And early morning meetings are horrid.
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Day 17: Battle of the Bulge
So, I regret to write that I haven't really done any exercise this week. I have worked more day shifts this week, so I can't really exercise during the day. That is my favorite time to exercise because it is just me. Everyone else is at work or school. I like to work out alone. Why? Because I am utterly ashamed of my body while I work out. I feel like I look awkward and my heavy breathing leaves nothing to be desired. I don't want even my loved ones to see me like this.
Working during the day puts a damper on my workouts. I just can't see myself flailing around and sweating in workout clothes with a possible audience. It might seem silly to some, because as you will probably all say---my family loves me. Yes. I know. They do. A lot. But I just can't do it. So I try to use my days off or the days I work night shifts to squeeze in a few workouts. Which this week just hasn't really happened.
And I know eventually my weight will come down to a size where I will no longer be embarrassed. Until then, I am open to ideas on how to overcome this obstacle....
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
Working during the day puts a damper on my workouts. I just can't see myself flailing around and sweating in workout clothes with a possible audience. It might seem silly to some, because as you will probably all say---my family loves me. Yes. I know. They do. A lot. But I just can't do it. So I try to use my days off or the days I work night shifts to squeeze in a few workouts. Which this week just hasn't really happened.
And I know eventually my weight will come down to a size where I will no longer be embarrassed. Until then, I am open to ideas on how to overcome this obstacle....
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Day 16: Stuck
Ever been stuck? Physically or Mentally? That is how I think I have been living my life for the past few years. Stuck. In the past. You know what I mean? No? Let me explain. For the past 10 years I have slowly had my weight creep up on me. But I still look to who I was 10 years ago and think its who I want to be or rather who I should be. 10 years ago I was a high school senior, ready to graduate and head to Furman. I was pretty smart and had a promising future. And of course, like I mentioned in one of my first blogs, life took a different route.
Anyways, in the back of my mind I still think of who I was back then, and for a long time I couldn't help but wish I could be that girl again. I wanted that brain, that future, that body I had in 2001. But here lately, I realize that if I had those things back, I would have to take all the bad that went with my life back then. And give back all the good that has come from it (i.e. my husby and daughter).
I never figured that I would stay so stuck in the past that 10 years would go by before I knew it. Well, I have made the decision to get myself unstuck. I do not want to compare who I am today with who I was, and wish I could be that girl again. Although that girl was smart, with a promising future, and a great body, she was also naive, shy, and barely able to do anything for herself. Now? Yes I am struggling with my self image, but I know who I am. I am a proud mother, and happy newlywed, and a survivor. I have been through rough patches and come out strong. I can still be naive (more like gullible and/or trusting), but I have definitely developed a "B.S. radar".
From now on, I am going to focus on my present and let that lead to my future. I am going to take things one day at a time and be proud of the woman I am. And that includes what I look like. I know that according to most people, it is impossible to get back to your high school weight. So, I am not looking to do that. I just want to be healthy and happy. And create a new me. So I can look back fondly at who I was, and where I have been, but love where I am.
Are you stuck?
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
Anyways, in the back of my mind I still think of who I was back then, and for a long time I couldn't help but wish I could be that girl again. I wanted that brain, that future, that body I had in 2001. But here lately, I realize that if I had those things back, I would have to take all the bad that went with my life back then. And give back all the good that has come from it (i.e. my husby and daughter).
I never figured that I would stay so stuck in the past that 10 years would go by before I knew it. Well, I have made the decision to get myself unstuck. I do not want to compare who I am today with who I was, and wish I could be that girl again. Although that girl was smart, with a promising future, and a great body, she was also naive, shy, and barely able to do anything for herself. Now? Yes I am struggling with my self image, but I know who I am. I am a proud mother, and happy newlywed, and a survivor. I have been through rough patches and come out strong. I can still be naive (more like gullible and/or trusting), but I have definitely developed a "B.S. radar".
From now on, I am going to focus on my present and let that lead to my future. I am going to take things one day at a time and be proud of the woman I am. And that includes what I look like. I know that according to most people, it is impossible to get back to your high school weight. So, I am not looking to do that. I just want to be healthy and happy. And create a new me. So I can look back fondly at who I was, and where I have been, but love where I am.
Are you stuck?
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Day 15: Flatbread Fail
What a day! This morning I hit the snooze, which I really didn't allot time for, so that left me scrambling 5 mins before I needed to leave the house with still about 20 mins of stuff to do. I gulped down a bowl of Special K and had my coffee brewing. I packed my lunch and got Bella dressed. I grabbed my lunch, my purse, my child, and ran out the door. As I got in my car I realized I left my coffee upstairs. *Sigh* I didn't have time to get Bella back out the car and run up the stairs to get my coffee (and no, I will never leave my child in the car even for a second)
I sent my husband a quick text telling him I left my coffee and drove off. After I dropped off Bella, I was walking back to my car when the husby pulled up. I was confused but when he rolled down his window he held out his hand. In his hand was my coffee. My heart skipped a beat :) I am a lucky lady. He told me he knew it was important to me (I measured out my creamer according to my WW points). I love that man!
Work was okay, still not officially taking customers because my ID number "does not exist". Along comes lunch time, which once again I am surrounded by take out. I pull out my steak and ranch flatbread SmartOnes. Its one of my favorites. Two minutes and forty fives seconds later I hear the *ding*. My lunch was done. I pulled out the food and as I did, the flatbread toppled towards me. I grabbed it the best I could, but my hand only caught the bread as it was upside down. All the steak and cheese fell flat on the unclean counter top. Ugh! So I salvaged the bread that I thankfully caught and ate it with my Campbells Soup at Hand. Not quite the lunch I had in mind. And then in come 5 coworkers with 5 bags of McDonalds and 5 large sweet teas. Thank the Lord for the will power I had. I finished up and walked out. I didn't really get hungry until I got home, thankfully.
Later, we were issued long sleeve shirts for iPhone day (2.10.11). Girls were fussing over Mediums and Larges. One even requested an Extra Small. I quietly requested an XL. Lord knows I wish I could have picked up a Large, but lets face it. Even if I was 20lbs lighter, I would still be blessed, uh, up top. Others were trying them on over their currents shirts, but I didn't dare. What if XL didn't fit? Or what if it did but not over my current shirt? Would I look like a crazy spastic person trying to get it off if it didn't fit? Ugh. I didn't dare try it on. So XL it is, and hopefully it fits. I haven't even tried it on from home yet. One day, I will fuss over the smaller sizes, but for know I will take comfort in knowing that my time is coming.
Thanks for listening to my rants today! If you enjoyed this share me with your buddies! Post me on your FB via the share link below. Comments welcome :)
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
I sent my husband a quick text telling him I left my coffee and drove off. After I dropped off Bella, I was walking back to my car when the husby pulled up. I was confused but when he rolled down his window he held out his hand. In his hand was my coffee. My heart skipped a beat :) I am a lucky lady. He told me he knew it was important to me (I measured out my creamer according to my WW points). I love that man!
Work was okay, still not officially taking customers because my ID number "does not exist". Along comes lunch time, which once again I am surrounded by take out. I pull out my steak and ranch flatbread SmartOnes. Its one of my favorites. Two minutes and forty fives seconds later I hear the *ding*. My lunch was done. I pulled out the food and as I did, the flatbread toppled towards me. I grabbed it the best I could, but my hand only caught the bread as it was upside down. All the steak and cheese fell flat on the unclean counter top. Ugh! So I salvaged the bread that I thankfully caught and ate it with my Campbells Soup at Hand. Not quite the lunch I had in mind. And then in come 5 coworkers with 5 bags of McDonalds and 5 large sweet teas. Thank the Lord for the will power I had. I finished up and walked out. I didn't really get hungry until I got home, thankfully.
Later, we were issued long sleeve shirts for iPhone day (2.10.11). Girls were fussing over Mediums and Larges. One even requested an Extra Small. I quietly requested an XL. Lord knows I wish I could have picked up a Large, but lets face it. Even if I was 20lbs lighter, I would still be blessed, uh, up top. Others were trying them on over their currents shirts, but I didn't dare. What if XL didn't fit? Or what if it did but not over my current shirt? Would I look like a crazy spastic person trying to get it off if it didn't fit? Ugh. I didn't dare try it on. So XL it is, and hopefully it fits. I haven't even tried it on from home yet. One day, I will fuss over the smaller sizes, but for know I will take comfort in knowing that my time is coming.
Thanks for listening to my rants today! If you enjoyed this share me with your buddies! Post me on your FB via the share link below. Comments welcome :)
-with much hope and a lot of prayer
Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*
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