Day 140: Missing in action

So the month of May proved to be a complete and total slack off on my part. I knew I was headed for failure even before my last post. Its been almost 3 weeks since I posted. After a while, I just decided to to consider myself of hiatus until after my birthday. Now, I am 28 and I know I need to get things in check. Somewhere along the lines of things though, my drive left. I still have the internal desire and want but the outward drive is missing in action. I am turning out to be all talk and no walk. Literally. I worked out like 3 times in May. And for the next 2 weeks I won't be able to make an appearance at Curves. I am doing the "single" mom thing for the next couple of weeks while the husby is out of town. So not only that, but throw in the fact that we live hours away from practically everyone we know---means not a spare moment to myself. No workouts, nothing. Unless I incorporate my daughter, and our new pupster. I am thinking long walks should do the trick! But I am slowly hoping signing up for Curves doesn't lead to a waste of money.

I am looking for ways to light the fire again. The one I had in January, in that hotel room, away from everyone I knew. So, I went to the grocery store today and got only healthy items. And I refuse to buy lunches at work. That has been a big diet fail as well as putting a big dent in my wallet.

I am setting up a few mini goals. This might reignite the flame. I plan on blogging every other night. Which is a lot more than I have been, right?! I am going to continue to focus on eating right, and try to take daily walks with Bella and Shelby.  I recently discovered I like Oatmeal. (Thanks to the McD's Fruit and Maple Oatmeal) and I like unsweet tea. No sweetener or anything. I am gonna eat Oatmeal in the morning with either my coffee or a smoothie (depending on my time frame). I will pack a lunch, and make a small sensible dinner. I have some fruit and 100 cal packs to do for snacks. I will drink mainly unsweet tea and water.  These are my mini goals to kick start my motivation. My next mid-range goal is to stay strong thru October. My husby's 10 year high school reunion is in October and I want to feel confident when we go. (And if my c/o 2001 would ever get the ball rolling, maybe we'd have our own 10 year to go too....but I digress.) So those are my mini and mid sized goals.

I know what I have to do, now its just doing it. I have been keeping up with BL season 11's participants via Twitter and Facebook (Mainly Oliva, Hannah, Irene, and Courtney!) And still, even though the show is over, these ladies move me. Courtney said something on the finale that hit home. In order to lose weight, I have to make the decision and never look back. Which is hard. But once she did it, she lost over 100lbs before stepping foot on the ranch! That's determination.

I need that determination. I still desire to lose another 50-70lbs if I am being 100% honest. I need to remember that and keep moving forward. No looking back. No stalling in the now. But pushing and moving in one direction.

I plan on watching a few of the new weight loss shows to see how they go. Like the Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition, and any other inspiring fitness journey shows.

Here we go again fellow bloggers!

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*