Day 104: In the Middle

I am stuck in the middle of 2 things I want.
1) to continue to lose weight and get in shape
2) to have baby #2 (and I mean like get preggo soon)

I know I still have time to have a baby, but I have baby fever! My husby is on board and my 3 year old is asking for a "brover baby" (baby brother.) And in a month I will be 28. Which is still young but closer to my 30s. I know that I cannot chose the gender of my future and unborn children...but if I were to wait a couple of years and end up with a girl...then I will have to try at least 1 more time for a boy. This would put me in my 30s (which again is not old) however I know the further you get in age, the hard conception can be. (or complications can arise).

On the other hand, I really do want to shed these pounds, and soon. I want to be able to be thin and healthy and feel good about myself. My weight loss hasn't been the best this past month or so as I have let a lot get in the way. I definitely need to get to the grocery store and get my healthy foods. I also need to hit Curves hard! My motivation has been lacking lately but at the same time I still yearn more than ever to be thin!

I explained to a few coworkers about why I couldn't eat Noodle & Co or Chipotle with them. I showed them my blog. I think they were blown away with my before pics. They said I was pretty now but I could tell my before pics surprised them. It really made me feel more motivated!

So readers, I realize the have a baby now/later debate is only one that I can decide...but what say you?

PS if no baby should I get a doggie?

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*

Day 100: Where have I been?

Apparently I fell off the wagon and it drove away before I could catch it...Sigh.

I am slowly catching up. After a great weekend home and a bunch of excuses before that--I have completely gone astray. I want to say I met my 4 week challenge but that would be a lie. I want to make a new one (my bday is in a month!) but now I am worried that making a challenge for myself is going to make it worse....

What to do?

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*

Day 88: Round is a shape!

So one of the managers at work is from Africa (not sure what part but she has a lovely accent!), and today as I was getting ready to leave she complimented me. She was telling me that she thinks I dress nice and that "round" women don't normally dress well. I didn't take offense to this (normally I probably would have) because I realized she really was being genuine. She meant that the way I dressed flattered my size. She is not new to the store but has been away on leave for a while so she doesn't really know my WW journey and efforts. Anyway I found it to be funny and thought I would share!

Also--I signed up officially for Curves today--NO MORE EXCUSES!!! And to top it off, the instructor said I can bring Bella if I am ever in a jam. So seriously no excuses!

AND today is my 8 month-iversary! LOL I can't believe 8 months has passed since we said "I do!"

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*

Day 86: Oooh!

I noticed today more than anything: my wedding band and engagement ring are loose!!! I hope one day soon I will have to get them resized! But not till I am down a significant amount. Yay!

That is my small win for the day!

What are some successes you are seeing?

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*

Day 85: Is that a wall? Or a Plateau?

I know I have been a stranger lately, I just haven't had much to report. I haven't lost anymore weight and I would love to say that it is because I am losing inches--but I doubt it. Since I went away last week to train for work, its been tough being on track. I have also resumed with my bad habit of eating out. Granted, I have NOT been eating bad stuff, and I make good choices when I go out. The fact is that, I really need to limit it to 1 time a week at most. The sodium and calories at a restaurant far exceeded food I can get at home.
So I probably haven't hit a plateau, but rather I am just not pushing hard enough. I am kind of disappointed in myself because my 4 week challenge is pretty much down the drain. I have about 2 weeks left (roughly) and I don't think I can lose 10lbs in that time and be healthy about it.
I haven't officially joined Curves, and if I have a moment today I am going to do it. I really enjoyed my free week and I am looking forward to pushing it harder.
One thing I have been doing is sucking in my gut while I work. Its not easy to do, especially while I am trying to troubleshoot phone issues. But I have tried it for 2 days now and let me tell you, my ab muscles (the ones hidden deep behind walls of fatty tissue) are aching! I feel like I have been doing crunches!!!

Well y'all---motivate me! (haha!)

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*

Day 80: Time to get back on it!

The Weight Loss Train that is...The past few days have been difficult to eat right, drink right, etc. So tomorrow I get to go full speed ahead! I have a lot to lose if I want to meet my 4 week challenge. I don't have a lot to say today because I am tired. But I am home from training and ready to lose weight!

I can tell that I haven't been doing what I was supposed to do by the way my body feels. And I do not like it one bit!!! But I am starting to see changes in my face, and others are too. Thanks for the encouragement!

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*

Day 79: Water! I'm a Fan!

So I stopped at Target today. I walked passed the water/juice section and saw a 4 pack of flavored water for $1.99. So I figured, why not? I grabbed the Archer Farms Pomegranate Blackberry Spring Water Beverage (don't worry, 0 calories!). It is so delicious!!! And I feel much more hydrated. I am not saying I will only drink this kind of water, but it does help me drink it up. That way when I am able to escape for a drink at work, I will easily guzzle this down! Yay!

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy

*Sexy or Bust*

Day 78: A few things on my mind

Its been a few days since I last blogged. So let me just say that this hotel, although it is nice, is not like the first stay I had during my New Hire Training. It is just a nice room. No kitchen. No microwave. No mini-fridge. So what else does that mean? No Smart Ones. No cold snacks. Etc... But I will make do with what I can.

So tonight, Biggest Loser made me tear up again. The girl who was the biggest at the start of the show went home today. She lost 92 lbs in 14 weeks. And before she even started she lost over 100 lbs. Her total weight lost when she left the Biggest Loser Ranch was 204 lbs. She was still at about 230 lbs when she went home, and went on to lose an additional 20. Who knows what she will be by the finale, but I can only imagine. I am excited for her. And I am taking to heart the words of wisdom she gave at the end of the show. She said that those of us watching at home don't need to be there to lose weight. We just have to trust the process. If we do the things necessary to be healthy, even though it may seem to take a snail's pace, slowly but surely we will get there. Eventually we will whittle away the pounds.

I think I have always struggled with trusting the process. After a few bad weighins or a few slip ups, in the past I have always tended to give up. But thanks to this blog, and all of you, my mindset has changed. I do trust the process. And I know that if this girl who started at home weighing over 430 lbs can now weigh 210 lbs (and over half of that was lost at home!), then I can do it. I can trust the process and I know that it does work.

Okay, aside from that renewed sense of motivation....there is another thing on my mind.

Water.

I am realizing that I am still not getting enough water in. I stay thirsty and then at night I feel like I have been walking a desert for days. Then I can't gulp down enough water before bed. How do I remind myself to drink? At work its near impossible to slip away to grab a drink unless its lunch time. Hmm... Any tips? Its not the flavor of water, because I am okay with just plain, ice cold water...I just can't seem to get enough in each day.


-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*

Day 75: A bit nervous!

So, for those of you who remember when I started writing this blog, it was from a hotel room during training for my job. Well Monday night I return to the scene. Kinda. I have to go back to Baltimore for a 3 day training. (Tues-Thurs). I won't be in the same hotel as before (I wish I was though!), so I am stuck wondering what it is going to be like. Will I have a fridge and micro? At least a fridge so I can buy a few Smart Ones to bring for my lunches. We do get compensated for our dinners, so I can make that a nice salad from somewhere. I just fear the "hotel life"

Plus, last time I was in training (and right before I started this blog) I was snacking all day to stay up and energized (lots of info at one time can lead to brain shutting down!)

Also, it means that for those 3 days I will not be able to go to my Curves. Hopefully there will be a workout room at the hotel. I guess I better look it up so I can know whats in store!

So, readers, I ask you this: what are your travel tips to eating and staying healthy?

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*

Day 74: Decent day!

Not much to say in the world of weight loss. I didn't work out today, busy work day! But after my 1st real month at work, I hit all my goals. Yay! I am gonna go work out tomorrow too, and try for Zumba on Saturday morning.

Also, I came across a pre-baby pic that I love. Its me between a 12/14. It is definitely something I could be happy at (until I get down to my true goal of a 10/12).

-with much hope and a lot of prayer

Lizzy
*Sexy or Bust*